Dirty Words

After talking with Mariam extensively about all this, I'm going to make a few changes:

1) Eliminate certain words from my vocabulary about myself

I'm taking this one step at a time. The first thing is to stop saying things about myself that are negative. Being negative about myself is ultimately harmful because it eats away from who I really am. I'm not a failure. I'm not a quitter. I'm not a disgrace or disgusting or disappointing. The people who have said those things about me had no right to do do. I have no right to say these things about myself.

When anyone I've cared about has told me they've fell short of a goal, I've never allowed them to call themselves failures. I asked if they tried their best, and if they have, then I've told them the goal they had just wasn't meant to be. God had a different plan for them. So, I think that's what I should believe for myself. I haven't failed. God had a different plan for me, and calling myself a failure isn't going to make anything better.

I'm eliminating words like "fail" and "disgrace" from my vocabulary to describe myself.